Report: In a Secret Journal, RFK Jr. Records a Painful Struggle With “Lust Demons”

The New York Post reportedly digs up 398 pages of scrupulously recorded infidelities, guilt-riddled responses, and mundane itineraries

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Robert F. Kennedy Jr. (L) and Mary Kennedy attend the gala fundraiser in support of the Waterkeeper Alliance on December 4, 2010 in Salt Lake City, Utah.

On the days he resisted the temptation to have an affair, Robert F. Kennedy Jr. marked the occasion in his secret journal with a one-word exaltation: “Victory!” But on the days of defeat, the ink really began to flow across the page.

In the 398-page journal obtained by the New York Post, Kennedy chronicled his day-to-day activities in 2001, but also maintained a detailed account of his extramarital affairs as he crisscrossed the country for various speaking engagements. According to the Post it was all inscribed in a decoy ledger entitled “Cash Accounts,” where he recorded the date of the infidelity, the name of the woman involved, and a code of numbers, ranging from 1 to 10, representing the performance of certain sex acts. Number 10 corresponds to intercourse. Numbers 1 through 9 have yet to be decoded by the Post — so at this point it’s hard to know precisely what he did on the day he recorded a 10, 3, and 2 over the course of a single fundraiser at the Waldorf-Astoria Hotel.

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But beneath the scrupulous record-keeping are lengthy essays about his struggle to keep what he calls his “lust demons” at bay, according to the newspaper. In a sign of how wild those demons could be, he reportedly writes about a stint in a Puerto Rican jail after he was arrested at a local protest. “I’m happy!” he writes while behind bars, relieved to find respite from the constant temptation to cheat. Kennedy’s infidelities caused tremendous problems in his marriage to Mary Richardson Kennedy, whom he portrayed as unstable and abusive. She committed suicide last year. The Post provides the details of the journal here. [New York Post]

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